Sitting on a park bench with my mates and tinny in hand one Tuesday morning, a wave of realisation swept over me. What the hell was I doing? At school I never once said that I wanted to be here when I left so how on earth had it happened?
Id actually had thoughts like this before. But that Tuesday was different. That Tuesday I’d had enough of the excuses and I moved on from thinking why to thinking how I would get out of it.
I had no idea what I wanted to do or where I wanted to be I just knew I didn’t want to be jobless and sofa surfing anymore. So first things was first i headed off to the job centre to sign on and actually spent time whilst there looking for a job. Any job. I had GCSEs but not gone on to get any higher qualifications so ended up taking a reception job at a well known car supermarket. It was only afternoons to start with so I carried on drinking for a while but after a big bust up with my boyfriend at the time I went back home to my mums.
Before I knew it I was no longer jobless and sofa surfing. As if over night I had made huge life changes just from one job search.
From there I wanted to improve what I had so I got a promotion at work, I met better people and a better boyfriend which stopped me drinking everyday. Stopping drinking meant I was able to work harder and managed to move out my mums to my own place and things have snow balled from there. All areas of my life have improved to where I am today.
People get caught up waiting for the best time, the best day, the best tools to achieve what life changes they want. People get caught up thinking about the past and wasting energy on thinking how things have got to where they have. People use normal life events as distractions or reasons to not start a change.
I say make one small change today, not next Monday, not next month, not in the new year but today. Put all reasons to one side because if you really want to make that change then it has to be your priority that day over anything else. Try asking yourself right now what’s more important to me, watching TV and eating cake or looking and feeling great? Change starts with changing the way you think about change. If you can make a change today with all the obstacles you have in life rather than waiting for perfect timing then you will be able to make that change last and make it the way you live life rather than a fad.
Take one small step today into the future you want and see where it takes you 💜
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